Meditation in a time of pandemic. No edits. March 18, 2020
As an adult it may be best for us to just go back and read the children’s books. After all, aren’t those the books that teach the fundamentals? How soon we get caught up in the ideas of others and drown in them.
Core essence — that’s the bottom line. You were created with all you ever needed to be. Until the eyes were opened to all the possibilities did you realize then, so many became the hardship. Then the will to surrender grounded you in the splendor.
Ecstacy – it’s there. Wisdom. Loving the ability through that. The ability to make choices that resonate with me! How can I be love when I’m subjected to the opposite!? I can’t! I can! By standing in my authority! My authority is from my Author! An author is one who writes a story.
God’s story is the one I am in. He’s refining me in many ways. So thankful! Abundance. Refinement. Glory. Honor. Mercy. Love. Holy Spirit. Engaged fully. For now. This too shall pass. Until my heart aligns. So easy to escape. So easy to hold fast.
Steady – that’s what I want! Back to the place I came from. Secure. Solid. Void. Void of anything that tried to betray me. Thank you!
Perhaps I chose. Perhaps I wanted to give my hand at saving too!? What a thought. And with that, now that I’ve seen the destruction, felt it in my body and released it to the Author. His Authority reigns forever. The grasp is ever so present and glorious.
“Please let me know!” In the book, What Did Jesus Ask?, the question Jesus asks in Luke 6:30, “Can the blind lead the blind?” reveals, yes. To me, as a follower of Christ, my responsibility is to love others as Christ loves me, ultimately pointing others to Him. Especially, as a follower of Christ and in any leadership position.
Are you a leader? We all are, and we all have a leader and our behaviors and attitudes point directly to how well we know our leader. Who do you follow? Do you have more than one leader? These are the questions that lead to our wholeness. Who is your leader? When we examine our hearts and we truly see ourselves in who God says we are and who you say your Leader is, we realize just how precious these truths are.
Eugene Cho, Senior pastor of Quest Church in Seattle, covers this question in the book I mentioned. She warns us of those in power and authority, about how it is so critical for us to analyze our leadership in where it is that we are leading people to. Are we leading them to Jesus that proclaims, “I am the way, the truth and the life.”? As a leader in my home, in my community, and on this planet, constructive criticism is welcomed for it helps me better lead those whom are witnesses to my attitude and behavior. Being humbly curious always, rather than defensive. For without your encouragement, leading blindly is not where my heart is. In this very exchange, grace and truth stem from a most loving place. Just as Jesus once asked, “Can the blind lead the blind?” The answer is in the question. Out of curiosity, what have you discovered by asking yourself the question?
When I heard those words, I didn’t know what that meant. Searched for days reading my Bible to understand what my place was in this turmoil of my heart. Months later, I am with the utmost reverence to Christ, thankful for His truth revealed to me providing more clarity.
Like the sun going down to complete the day, my heart is complete in the words spoken to me today. Die to sin means, TRUST CHRIST! That is where I remain at peace. In all my desire to be a peaceful spirit, I can only trust Christ to console me and guide me. It is then, I feel complete.
Lean into Christ with all your anguish. He is the one that you need to cling to when you feel so distraught about the pain in your heart that appears once again. The evil one, your ego will try and define you. Come to know this truth. Be love, allow for others to express their love! Being centered in that love allows you to be in whatever circumstances, surrendered and remaining in your own uniqueness. With others wherever you are, you can genuinely remain connected to your inner power. Wherever you are, you can share your love and excitement for the sake of honoring your God-given gifts and it begins right where you are. Abhor evil and cling to Christ!
Holy Spirit lives in you and will guide you and fulfill you. Our struggles refine us and transform us into the character of Christ. Seek His Truth to come to know the very core of who you are. Love.
I believe when you are being your unique and full expression of
you, it encourages others to do the same. Imagine a place where you are
fully acceptable. There is harmony and encouragement, certainty and
safety, variety and significance, connection and love, growth, and contribution.
A friend of mine shared a theory with me, that humans have six needs.
As I wrote them down on an electronic sticky note, I defined what each
means to me. If you define them for yourself, your descriptions may be
different than mine. How beautiful a place when we get curious about each
other’s definitions and live lovingly.
When we get to the identity of our core, we find who we
“say” we are. With that clarity, our true desires unfold like a
rose opening itself up in the sun. Its fragrance is blissful on a warm sunny day
if you happen to be downwind. Or, you need to lean over and place your
nose up-close and personal. By exploring your own identity, you may produce
a metaphor of what fragrance you are.
Diving into your own identity is a remarkable experience. Learning to value who I am, get curious about other people’s identity, and be the person I was created to be is freedom. Freedom prevails when I am living out my full expression of love. And living out my full expression of love hopefully encourages you to do the same! What is “living out your full expression of love” like for you?
I crawled through the podcast and into her story as if it were my own. How she described her pain and feelings of sensitivity was so familiar. Her words depicted the pain my body feels at times. And over the years I am thankful for the clarity regarding my type and I continued to listen as I was curious about how she navigates our culture.
Stumbling upon this podcast seemed like such a fluke. Yet hearing her story, which described and articulated similar experiences for me was comforting. Years ago I was all too familiar with being told, “Stop being so sensitive!” These statements crushed my spirit in a way I didn’t like. The reaction from others prompted me to seek out answers to figure out how I could fit in somehow without causing such (what felt like) a volatile reaction. I had to discover what it was that caused such a reaction in people and how I could change in an effort to not bother people so much. I wondered how could I just be me and be respected? After years of study, understanding who I am helped me overcome and answer those questions. My actions of discovery brought awareness and, wait for it….sensitivity, around my reaction to circumstances, in an effort to respect those around me.
Since navigating life for over half a century, looking back, the obvious is that I am sensitive. Sometimes empathy stimulates signals from my core to every nerve causing me physical pain. Probably similar to how a slug may feel if you cover it in salt. What I changed is my reaction to my feelings. I am able to recognize the feelings, label them and act accordingly. Perhaps if news is overwhelming I may remove myself from the room or conversation. And in other situations I will simply notice. Living with this personality type has its challenges yet we can be thankful for discernment and our ability to utilize these gifts to help others. Encouragement is one of the outcomes.
By the act of naming our feelings, we can choose to proactively convert the energy constructively outward. Perhaps the feeling is, fearful. When I am fearful, I am thankful for the wisdom to know. In the very moment, in some form or another, an entity is feeding us. Notice what entity is feeding you. (Reading this article is feeding you!) When you have clarity be aware of your choice. (Are you about to move on from this post and delete it? Or are you intrigued in finding out more about how you may be able to change similar experiences?) Your choice will determine your outcome (Input: output). Consider this: When we are aware of the food we are ingesting, or are allowing to be ingested (I am referring to the information you are allowing to enter into your mind) your precious cells are reacting. What environment are your cells being subjected to? Choose a loving, constructive entity. In that very moment hold fast to the current that rushes from the same entity that feeds the stars which hold the elements essential for your existence. The opposite could be a destructive entity leaving you feeling defeated or others distraught. Loving and constructive entities help you produce good fruit.
As I write this, I think about how we are all in circumstances beyond our control. In this very moment my heart and body feel heavy. (Exactly what I am talking about.) Move: label the feeling; Act: articulate constructive thought; Participate: inward or outward. Make a conscious effort to connect with:
In that very moment of connecting with Love I couldn’t resist the thought of all of us in some sort of war zone. And you and I know that war zone can be defined in many ways. However mild or severe, defined by you, …when you are subjected to this reality, make it your objective to hold fast to comfort and guidance. Surrender to that power. Sink into the feeling of surrender and then rise with the strength to carry on. Within that very moment it took me to type these words, I was able to experience dread when thinking of others in a war zone and then strength to fulfill my mission. May all your feats be blessed with love!
Here’s the podcast that describes feelings and gives insight to words like cornerstone, morning star and names of God that have shaped Holley Gerth’s wisdom. About 12 minutes into the podcast is where the story unfolds about how she overcame her challenges which reflect some similarities for me.
E V E R Y time I hear this song I just melt thinking of my children! What a beautiful song…..
My Wish – Rascal Flatts (Lyrics On Screen) Published on May 20, 2014″My wish” by Rascal Flatts
Lyrics: I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow, And each road leads you where you want to go, And if you’re faced with a choice, and you have to choose, I hope you choose the one that means the most to you. And if one door opens to another door closed, I hope you keep on walkin’ till you find the window, If it’s cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,
But more than anything, more than anything, My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to, Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small, You never need to carry more than you can hold, And while you’re out there getting where you’re getting to, I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too, Yeah, this, is my wish.
I hope you never look back, but ya never forget, All the ones who love you, in the place you left, I hope you always forgive, and you never regret, And you help somebody every chance you get, Oh, you find God’s grace, in every mistake, And you always give more than you take.
But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything, My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to, Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small, You never need to carry more than you can hold, And while you’re out there getting where you’re getting to, I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too, Yeah, this, is my wish.
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to, Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small, You never need to carry more than you can hold, And while you’re out there getting where you’re getting to, I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too, Yeah, this, is my wish.
This is my wish I hope you know somebody loves you May all your dreams stay big Category People & Blogs License Standard YouTube License
A poem about God’s love for His precious children.
Hey, little one, it’s okay to cry, I’m sensitive to you, and your weary precious mind. For days gone by release, and today embrace the love, to tether all your heart, to your greatest triumph yet. No longer slave to sin, and mercy flows around, protecting once again, your precious soul within. Now never do you part, to let your heart have fear, no longer in your angst, for love is always here. Now go in peace to serve, as once again you know, the hold I have on you, for your dearest day is near. Behold, of my commands, and keep them in your heart, to place my love in you, and to share with all of you. No sin can harm you now, for you have the right to know, that every where you go, we never ever part. I’ll hold your hand for now, and always and forever, be close to me I pray, that you choose when I deliver. Go forth in love and joy. Replenish all you need, to grow in love to nurture, and know you’ll always win, in the race I have you in. You know the gate is narrow, I’ve told you long ago, so take my hand, I’ll guide you, in the love you want to know. ~Susan Husa
Your feelings can help you navigate boundaries. When you are feeling violated, your throat may get tight and may be signaling to you of a boundary issue. Spend time searching for answers about your feelings. Find answers when you are unsure of what to do. This is my discovery of a situation.
I turned to friends asking them about my character. I searched in my Bible, read a book by Dr. John Townsend and Dr. Henry Cloud. Boundaries: Updated and Expanded Edition. One idea struck me of how the Bible commands us to humble ourselves. They write that “If you do what you are able – confess, believe, and ask for help – God will do what you are unable to do – bring about change. (1 John 1:9; James 4:7-10; Matt.5:3, 6).”
My heart has been heavy with a situation I know needs changed. After a few days of processing how to deal with this situation, I heard the words in my mind, “Die to sin.” Initially I was thinking it related to jealousy. That didn’t feel quite right but it was the only thing I could come up with at the time that made sense. Later, after much more reading about boundaries I came up with my truth that I wasn’t jealous; I had exercised poor boundaries. When we are not equipping ourselves with knowledge around how to navigate this world, we fail ourselves and others. Natural instincts and learned behavior regarding boundaries can only take you so far in your growth and maturity for Christ-like character and holy living.
I am rejecting a place where I feel so much animosity. I am searching to find out how to protect myself in these kinds of experiences. I want to learn more about my character development. I acknowledge my intentions are not to hurt. And I am praying that God will reveal to me what I need to know and do, so that I honor my values. I do not want to hurt anyone and somehow I feel like I am. We can’t expect our character or other’s to be like Christ’s but we can strive for it to be, forgiving ourselves and others of our shortfalls.
Much of what I am reading relates to what I am experiencing. I am uncomfortable thinking that I was judging someone and confirm that it is rather discernment and is so crucial to our well-being so that we are not lead to sin. What I discovered in 2 Peter 3:18 “….they lure back those into sin, those who have barely escaped from a lifestyle of deception.” This struck a chord with me. As I strive to be without sin, I need to have places I am learning in to be nurturing. We can all be sinners and you can choose to be with groups that are respectful. If they are not, it is okay to leave.
I discovered that in this environment I was feeling enmity. That was the first word that came to mind. I looked it up and enmity which in the dictionary I used says it is a feeling or condition of hostility; hatred; ill will; animosity; antagonism. Animosity is what actually describes how I was feeling in this situation. Animosity is a feeling of strong dislike, ill will, or enmity that tends to display itself in action: a deep-seated animosity between two sisters; animosity against one’s neighbor.”
Well, I don’t want to have that feeling or do I like that feeling! So what I learned in boundaries is that you have to remove yourself from it. I was not comfortable talking with this person. I don’t trust them and I fear that they would try and twist my truth or tell me they are sorry and continue with the behavior. I had removed myself for a few years in this situation and felt discord thinking I would never go back.
I went back. When I did, I felt the same way again. 2 Peter 2 also tells us that you are a slave to whatever controls you. I won’t be controlled by feelings that leave me distraught. I can’t change the person causing me this pain, so I leave. I feel like I have the skills now to carry forward in this type of situation. This is where one can feel joy except in this case, I don’t yet because I have another lesson to learn. I am joyful in that I have learned how to confront the issue next time I have this experience with someone. But in this situation I have no trust. That is the part that I need God to reveal to me next. I now need to know how to leave someone without ever feeling guilty because I didn’t give them a chance to hear how and why what they did caused me animosity. But….I do believe in my heart that they do know. And I will never be sure. But I do know that God will reveal to me what I need to do. Forgiveness has always been there and much love for this person. I just can’t take this hardship any more. There were many times they crossed boundaries. Had I had the skills and knowledge to exercise my boundaries in a constructive way I would have. But frankly, I felt like I was already up against a defiant person.
So then I go on to read 2 Peter 2 and it says that when we “get tangled up and enslaved by sin again, we are worse off than before. It would be better to have never known the way to righteousness than to know it and then reject the command they were given to live a holy life. They prove the proof of this proverb, “A dog returns to its vomit. Proverbs 26:11 and another says, “A washed pig returns to the mud.” I was feeling the same feelings over again. I could not handle it! So the best thing for me to do was to leave. Clearly things had not changed.
I encourage all of us to ask for help! Understand that we are all sinners and that we all have a responsibility in our conduct. I am not perfect and I am trying to change my ways. The point here is that if ever any of you are feeling like you are being mistreated or in a situation that is causing you to sin – leave. Young readers, ask an adult to help you. Find someone you can trust and tell them!!! I am thankful that as I seek God’s instructions that he leads me in such a way that he does not want me to condemn anyone rather know the truth and follow his commands to help yourself from committing sin. That is where you can find freedom that is also referred to in 2 Peter.
There is a full reading in the Holy Bible. Anything you need to know about living out this life as a Christian is in there. We can only be perfect in our maturity level. Christ calls all of us believers to excel, rise above mediocrity and to mature in every way to become like him. I encourage you to be patient in learning what you are curious about. We can’t expect others to be perfect but we can recognize when environments are not healthy for us. Pray for God’s will on earth as it is in heaven!
May you find helpful information here and if I have misconstrued any of God’s Word, I pray that He will be your teacher in setting you straight or me straight. When we seek to understand His commands, we really do find freedom. I pray that I don’t trip anyone up from being a Christian. I confess that my behavior does not reflect that in which I strive to be like. I have much more to learn. I also know that I can walk beside this person that I have strife with and I vow that I would support them if ever they asked me to. Time does heal all wounds. I have been through many excruciating acts of forgiveness and this one is different from the others. I actually am thankful for this lesson and strife because I know it is only purifying my heart. But I encourage those with my story to be overcome with the truth so that you may at least try to live your life out according to which we are to conduct ourselves.
God will take care of us if we allow him to. I love the discipline I receive from him. I really do experience the freedom when I do. I hope that you are able to go in peace to love and serve the Lord! ~ Susan Husa
The reality of today overwhelms me. I pause to hear what you have to say. When I fix my eyes on you; well – here’s how I’m dealing today….
My soul feels fractured
In the midst of this life
My heart knows better
In the truth of your Word.
Take me where I go away
When my soul longs lovingly for you!
I’m holding fast to you right now, affixed to your comfort and your love. My fractured soul returns to you, forevermore – you bring me joy! The joy and happiness you’ve planned for me are much greater than any man can see.
So thank you Lord over all the earth – For you are divine and part of me! I’m feeling thankful for your clarity. I’m feeling perfectly in all your Glory! Forever – Amen